Friday, April 21, 2006
`21.o4.06
hmmm.. is 2.35am now! n i can't slp. realli can't slp. so decided to come n blog. well.. something had been in my mind for long. real long. everything in mi jus dun seem rite. i'm like someone no longer impt to him. e care n love from him r GONE! i realli dun get to feel any ; anymore. we onli had our sweet moments sometimes when we meet. n we onli meeted once or twice a week due to his working time. i dun mind tis at all. but watever i do everyday he dun seem to know. we dun sms, coz he once told mi he dun like to msg. we onli chatted on fone b4 he go to bed all nite. n mostly all calls was like less then 5 min? e most nt more then 30 min. i MISSED him so much daily. but i dun get to see him nor chat more wif him. i ever tot of giving each another a break. but i realli realli dun bear to leave him. i know he needs mi. so do i. alot of my frenz came n toked wif mi abt it. they say tat i'm stupid. but once dear told mi i should nt listen to wat others say. n i listened to him. but.... sigh* i'm like so lonely all day, being bored. tot i'm attached to him. sometime i feel tat my frenz r much more caring n know mi much much more better then he does. i'mCONFUSE ! realli dunno wat to do. i realli do love him. alot of guys did came up to mi, but still i rejected no matter wat. coz my heart is death for HIM. sometimes i ever think n worry tat he might haf someone better then mi out there. i know i'm thinkin too much. but tis is normal gals thinking. i dun feel save anymore. haii. god, pls tell mi wat to do? i realli nid a better n lovely life. sigh* i dun wish to bring up all tis. i know there sure quarrel between us. he will always be pissed off n get tired whenever i tok abt it. but.... i'm sorry dear. jus hope tat u understand hw i feel as a gf.
