Tuesday, April 25, 2006
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time for bloggin le. had nt been blogging for 2 days le? well well.. i think alot recently. abt should i still continue wif him? or ask for a short break? i'm real confuse! send him a 13 text sms last nite. real long ar? speakin out all my feeling for him. he called mi alot of times tis afternoon, but i nv ans. i'm REAL sorry. coz i realli dunno wat to say after i pick up ur call, i'm scare n afriad. n i know for sure TEARS will drop off. he say he dun wan a short break. is onli neither leave or stay, he wont stop mi from leaving if i will be easier n be more happy w/o him. he jus wanna see mi happy. he say he is someone striaght, if he dun love his gf he will break off striaght away. but for mi he never ever tot of breakin off. he is confuse now, neither am i. my heart when soft after readin all those msg from him. derek, zuoping, michelle n my other frenz out there. thanx for cheering mi out n talking mi tru. i'm touch to haf u guys listenin eye. after so much tears. i dunno y am i still tearing. seriously telling, after tis 9th month being wif him. i realli gone tru alot. he realli changed mi loads! is hard for mi to let go jus tis way. sometimes i realli dunno wat am i thinking. but seriously telling. feeling for him still there.
met michelle jus now for late lunch at plaza. was real hungry after tearing so much. ate at food court. after tat we took a bus down to jurong point. damn heavy rain. acc her wait for cab coz she nid to go tuition. then i waitied for joey jie jie n my mum to come then go eat dinner at soup resturant. nice nice. ate till so full. after tat we went to joey jie jie house. mum wan go take thing from her place. stayed at her place till dad come fetch us home. reached home kinda late, but i still nv get any calls from him as he say he will call. so i send him a msg. he reply n say he dun feel like toking. ask mi go slp early. well... maybe he nid sometimes to think too. hopefully he calls mi back tml. n tok everything well. think i'm writing a letter to him ba. i'm real tired ! oh ya. adidas ppl jus called mi today say i had been approved as a part timer. well.. tml gonna go down at 10am for e training. hope is nt hard.
*got another mail tat moses typed. i realli dunno wat esle can i say to him. as i'm real confuse now. i'm sorry for everything. i nid to be alone for e time being. time will tells everything.*
*how i wish i can be as happy as her all day*
