Wednesday, October 18, 2006
hmmm.. took a break from mugging. gonna mug till almost fall aslp le. tot i could get a msg from him. but.... hais. well well.. recently some mis-understanding happens between mi n him. maybe is my fault ba. can't be a perfect gf for him. i promised him i will msg him every morning when i woke up. but i didn't ytd. hai. maybe wat my dad say is rite. i'm brainless ; forgetfull. i really had to tell baby tat i'm sorry. i should nt had broke those promises. but wat had happen had already happened. time wont turn back. n i will take it a lesson to mi. pick up my mistake ba. i realli hope tat baby can accept my mistake. it realli hurt to see him tis way. i realli hope to see e smile back on his face once again. without his words, caring n loving tis few days. something jus seems to be lost in my life. every moment i jus stare at my hp to his reply. i realli need him. missed him so so badly.
ytd when to work at novena. nth much. cousins n e gf came to look for mi ard late evening. bought tee shirt. n he bought mi a adidas bag from here. =) thanx* today knock off sharp at 9.30pm. i don't know wat's was on my mind till i can even took a wrong train to tao phayo. then i quickly alight n took another train back to newton. reached newton at 9.50pm le. waited 10 min for bus 700 but e bus uncle dun stop. coz too many ppl le. waited for another 10 min. still e uncle dun wan to stop. then i waited for e 3rd 700. is came onli afte 15 min. but still e uncle dun let us aboard. so i walked down to another bus stop which was 10 min away. so far ! i'm damn tired at tat moment. but no choice. e road was so dark n scary. =( reahed tat bus stop waitied for 960. suddenly took out my hp from my bag, n saw a miss call from my mum. so i called back hm. bro ans. so i told him i still waitin for bus. ask him tell mummy go slp first.was about to hang up e fone after tat, my hp auto off. totally no batt. kip on tryin to on again so tat i can msg dear, but still can't. hais. after tat i reached hm onli at ard 11.45pm.
today when back to school. nth much. as usual i'm alone. msged dear e whole morning. kip on lookin at my hp during lesson. but still no reply from him. i'm real sad. after sch end, i went over to lucky plaza food court to ate my lunch. tot i will be able to see him. but he say he can't leave his shop. so after i eat, i jus went to pee at him. dun think he know ba. after tat i took a train down to yishun my aunt place le. stayed there till 6+pm then took a train home. so tired. when i almost reached home, dad called mi. ask mi buy bread b4 i come home. so i went to NTUC under my blk there to buy it then go home. reached hm changed le, suddenly i found out tat my hp was missing? finding up n down for it. then i run all e way down to NTUC to find it. tot i left it there. but still dun haf. then i came hm. then i found it at e basket where i put dirty clothes. how blur can i be. am i too stress? hais. bathe, eaten dinner n start my mugging le. after tis post gonna go back to mugging le. just hoping he will gib mi a call later. =( tml gonna be my first mouldes for banking and finance.
many things jus stress in my mind. guess my mind is in e messy nw. school work r making mi go round. hai.
>>>>> do i look like her? felicia chin? i dun think so. but when i am outside buying food. e aunt can even say she is my sister =.='''
