hurts ; pain all hidden in the emo kid hearts.

didn't get to blog yesterday. was at my aunt place yishun. went down there yesterday evening to find my god ma. i'm like needing her help badly in my accunting. thanks for her help (: at least i understand. my baby crystal as in bad state. her sickness was like never recover tot she discharged from hospital on chinese new year. poor thing. in the midden of the night she keep on crying. guess she gt problem breathing? due to her lung problem. she need those x-ma stuff.

had a tiff with baby last nights. due to i wanna meet him. 6 days w/o meeting him. i feel wired. the feeling is real bad. but he don't let mi down to his work place due to my up coming exam. but i really miss him loads. can he feel it? sigh. i tears. real badly. having fever last night too. nose blocked. real xin ku. but still i force myself to bed. asked myself not to think so much. he say he is stress whenever i say all tis. but i jus wanna see him as a GF ): maybe i'm at fault. i say sorry to him. asked him not to sound so pissed and angry. i'm real scared when i see him tis way. i know i had stress him up and he i tired after work. but i simply just miss him ):

woke up this morning at 10+? tot i will have a call from him around 9.30 as usual. but he never called. ): msged him no reply. meeted michelle at yishun late afternoon. passed her the sushi i bought for baby. asked her bring it town for my baby since she going down. *thanks alot girl for helping !* this is the only way i can do. cause he wont wan to see me appear at his work place. around 7+ when i on my way home. i'm suprised to see his calls. but he don't sound normal ): askedwhy this morning he never call me. he say never call then never call lo. sigh* hurts. but still nothing i can say. my heart are real soft.

i dunno why, he is the only guy which i'm scared to bring my attitude out to him. i dun have those courage at all. last time de joey is not this way. sob sob* is this true love? or jus one side love? does he know how much i love and miss him? but i really do ):

god ! please tell me what should i do. i'm real tired of life sometime. but still i hang on to whatever i had tightly. save me please !

*anyway good luck for my dearest michelle
appealing courses for her poly. hope she get the course she realy wants (:

i simply just need all your care and love.