There's nothing the end, it's begun
What can you do when it all drains

had a talk out with baby lst nights. both of us agree our distance getting further. honey mood period had past. we not longer what we are in the past. i remember he once told me he will change just for me after that last quarrel. but nah. never. but still i never say anything. i changed myself to what he wan. do what he say. why can't he just listen to me once? all the promises from him just gone. i don't why. but still i can understand him. i give him all i can. to let him feel safe, loved, cared and sweetness for me. but who gonna give me back all this? i don't know. he asked for a broke off last night. i totally don't agree with. called him and talk nicely to him. i bear al my tears over the phone. coz i know he hate it. after hanging up then i throw all my tears over. i jus can't bear with all the tears any longer.

he say he can't do what i wan. but i already don't ask for more from him. i don't even expect much from him. my heart bleed deeply after he told me that. he say we need a break where there a needs. but i don't find it a need. i still love him as much as the start. after so much i never give up on him. i really don't wish to see that day come that he give up on me. he told me he don't like to use hp. alright. i understand. and as a GF i now already don't mind he not contacting me for the whole day till he going to bed. can say that i missed him alot ! but still nothing i can do. he need to work and i understan. 20th months just past this way. i really hope we can get better and walk down a hard and path of or own for our whole life.



somehow my heart js bleed like this apple.